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금요일, 8월 17, 2007

5:14 오전

Im still fat....

My studies sucks....

Whats new....

God has really blessed me with a good family. My parents give me alot of freedom. My brother is just wonderful. And everything is well. Ive got friends.

Best of all, i think God has given me gifts that ive always overlooked. I think i can draw better than most people.. "i think" and "most" are the keywords. lol. but still then.. cant deny it.

God has also given me a damn good ear.. and a smart mouth sometimes to encourage others. But mostly to listen to their problems. And sometimes when you have all the love in the world to give to others, you cant help but feel you have no one to receive it from. But, NO FEAR! If there's one thing God made it very clear to me, HE loves me. lolz.. very personal but true.

So recently, it has been brought to my attention( rather laggy) that it would soon be the end of my stay in VJC. And regarding friends, theres 2 things that stood out in my mind.

One of them is this person who constantly faces problems in his/her ( confidential sorry..told you im a good listener...so CONFIDE IN ME!!!!.. dun be cheated by those ppl who will gossip about you.. lololol) unique way. Something tells me ( hopefully the holy spirit working and not my pride) that this person needs to know that he/she cannot always face a problem or adversity and them confide in people like me. Coz i believe that the fact that the person even told me about it, meant that God has a plan. And that plan i believe, like most of plan, is to uplift the weary soul through this force called love, which transcends the whole Christian theology.

But, theres a limit to what humans can do. Likewise, theres a limit to my effectiveness as a friend. Therefore, i was hit one night by this sudden urge to tell the person to create a home in his or her heart for God. Not so much that he or she may be less affected by everything, but more to introduce the person to experience the love of God. unfortunately, the talks ive had with this person is always very unappropriate.. so cant really tell... But, if its God's will, it would be done... i pray.. AMEN?

Second! wow so long.. sorry... got inspired..theres this certain someone whom i know. My friend rather. Encouraging and fun and full of shit. Had lots of fun toking cock. When i couldnt do something he would help me. And i hardly did anything for him. The closest thing to ever doing anything for this person i guess would be to effectively keep his or her secret, though people knew already.. lol. So i was sleeping yesterday and i thought about a weird senario. What if this friend of mine died the next day. Of course, i started thinking back to all the times that we crapped and so on and so forth. Though i dun think he really required me as a friend, i appreciated his /her presence in my life and hence i say God has blessed me. And to glory God back in return, ive been thinking of doing something back for this friend of mine for once. But he/she may be skeptical and reluctant. As they say, you can count the number of seeds in a fruit, but you can never fathom the number of fruits from the seed.

Lastly, i had this dream that i was in the midst of someone being possessed and was trying to possess me. Freaky, it happened three times in the same afternoon but all three had different senarios. My last dream was about this person's birthday. The next day i checked my mail, friendster had this birthday alarm for the very same person. Co-incidence? God works in mysterious ways and while HE does what He always does, i pray i will continue in my faith, burning brighter and stronger each day till the day He comes to take me home.